This note will be divided into at least three parts. I Inevitably on days like this I rethink the decision to ignore my knack for math. I could go back to school and learn to fix things, learn to build things, become an architect, heal people, make something of myself. Come home each night, feet up, grab the lastest copy of Saturday Night magazine, throw on Pearl Jam's "No Code", sip a glass of middle class booze, be warm and fat and wait, like everybody else. Instead. Wake up. Feel the brunt of sloppy shouting. Messy passion for different combinations of words. Fuck, you can smell that passion, even the next morning. Couldn't give that up. Not even if it means moving North. I need to buy some time, leave loved ones new and old, leave potential, go to a community where men outnumber women four to one and it's more dark and cold than anything. Take off the gloves--scared and frozen--under a gather of northern lights, long enough to hold your hand - DDS. II Tonight Forget Magazine will be appearing at the Orange Hall in Fernwood to hear and see contributor Nick Thran and maybe even read out loud. If you are good people, we would like to meet you. We drink whiskey sours. We drink beer. We wear stocking hats. We talk, we laugh. We hold scared hands - Ed. III It is well past noon. Matthew Dorrell and I have been in Victoria for 19 hours. We have already been intoxicated, eaten enormous sandwiches, pulled Darren away from his up-island plans and found ourselves in a connundrum of couch allotments. And had it out with that kid Mike Lecky. I won on all accounts. You too: This I offer to you as an intro, and outro, a way in. This trip, this ending, this treatise; this hollow in the hearts of generations; this face too pale for shadows: a sense of place, a laugh, a history, a game, a Canada. And this: I will hold your hand if you are scared - KJB.

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UNDER MOMMA'S WINGS Edna Roberts

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CJ Kent Bruyneel

IN NEWSPAPERS Matt O'Grady

THE 2002 GREY CUP Matthew Dorrell

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MEN AND CARS (2) (3) Adrian Chamberlain

I AM SO HUGE Steven Galloway BACK OF A BLUE Elianna Lev THE CFL Scott Hutchison AZUCAR Nick Thran

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